The Journey of Lyle

I have a tough decision I need to make in the next couple of days. Do I go through with my plan of dropping my second degree and keeping my courses as I have them, or do I stay in the second degree and in doing so need to change one class. The problem is not the changing of the class, so much as the one that I think I would have to change is one I am truly looking forward to: “Spirituality for Ministry” to “Assessment and Appraisal.” If it was changing Luke, I would be okay with that, but…  to keep my classes on two days not three this would be the only option. In doing so I could then in the spring do CPE if I have yet to find a job and then perhaps continue on with this second degree if things still do not work out…

Tough decisions to make, and limited time to do so.

Peace be with you

I believe it has been a while since I have taken time to write… Well I have written, but not posted in some time. The first weekend of August  I spent some time with a group of wonderful  Jr. High youth as they served other and each other providing wonderful ministry and showing their amazing generosity and ability to respond to the Eternals’s call and travel the path of discipleship. it was amazing.

My mind has been struggling with thoughts and reflections upon a sermon I am to give in a few weeks time as well, I hope that it will come out in some or fashion that is understandable, meaningful, and conveys what is needed to be conveyed.

With all this going on, with the departure of summer staff, and with the wight of various things upon me, and joys and fears for the coming term and what lies beyond, I am at an interesting place right now and it shall be an interesting journey ahead for sure.

Peace be with you,

Thump, thump, thump
I feel my heart pounding in my chest
I feel the blood pulsating through me,
Slow and Rhythmic,
At time loud, at times soft,
My skin tingles, cringes, calls out,
I feel everything, and yet nothing,
Spirit and Body dancing the tangled dance of the soul,
emotions flood, worries sour, joys flood.
Thump, Thump, Thump
My heart pounds within, and I wonder why I notice now?
I wonder why it disturbs me so,
Should feeling life not be grand?

I want to write, I want to think, I want to express thoughts and ideas. However, I am unable to. I can’t stay focused. I look around and want to be there for others, to aid them to help them, to do some good in this world, but I feel as If I know not what to do, what to say. I’m tired and I’m worn, and I feel bad because I see so much, I feel so much and want to respond, want to be there for, and yet feel as if I’m not. Then feel worse because the only way I know to describe is in I statements, when the I is not really part of the experience/thought process, but the only way to express it in the limits of language. Well beyond the tired and worn part… I need to figure out what is going on so that I can get back on track and truly respond to the Eternal’s call to all of us. Working in and with community toward that day of peace and justice I long for when all is restored and made whole once more.

Peace,